As I Sit Here

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As I sit here -

up the stairs and at my computer desk -

Down below in the heart of the house,

my sister sips my father's medication.

Oramorph is clear.

It makes you sleepy if you drink.

If I went to catch her drinking it she would lie,

she would tell me she were allowed.

Nobody of healthy body should drink the drink she does.

I tried to move it from her sight,

but she found it.

Every time she found it.
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She filled the bottle with water once

because she drank it all.

My father was in pain for that whole month.

We didnt tell him why.

That would have been a greater pain than all.

Time Worship

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I dont get math. Math and my brain do not mix. So, perhaps, this is why I find Time such a confusing concept?

What if things just are? We're told to meaure time by past, present and future. Ther paradox of that being is that we always live in the present; we cannot exsist in the past and we cant live in the future so, in essence, we live in a world (devoid of time) in which we count nothing but time.

Im confusing myself just typing this out right now, but try to measure time, not by its essence, but by how the world changes because of it. For example:

Your hair used to short. (PAST)
You are currently living with long hair (Present)
You plan on cutting your hair (FUTURE)

Strip away the "used to" "Current" and "Plan" words. What if we didnt meaure time by change? What if things just are?

Your hair is long.
You get a haircut.
Your hair is short.

Why define moments by memorizing them as a past event and then look to the future?

Im not explaining this very well. I... I guess im trying to imagine a world in which we didnt measure by time.
What if things just were the way they were and that was it? Things would still change, but the recognition of their change would not define what they were. What their purpose was etc.


It is a hard concept to grasp because we have lived with time for a very long ... time.

Time. You cant see it until it's too late.
I wonder, if there were another (alien) civilization out there, if they would have a better understanding of time than we do as we are now?