Interesting (random) Thought

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People who perform social actions that are NOT defined by their character, but by what they THINK looks cool.

I find the above, not only very annoying, but character-shattering. When you have just managed to memory map the body language of a person and then they start to perform actions out of their perceived character (for the sake of looking cool) it makes them look foolish.

Thinking of this in more depth, I may have ended friendships and relationships for this very reason - but have never realised it.

I think too much.

Happy Holidays.

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I dont feel they WHY of why I should document this specific christmas. It just feels a little more important this year than it did last year I guess.


Roll on the New Year - I'll be fucked if im letting another one roll by.

Alan Ward Furniture

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I have just entered a competition for Alan Ward Furniture. You had to create a picture using one of their in store items and it was super fun!

I actually do really like Alan Ward Furniture (Check it out yourself!) because they have some amazingly stylish items for sale. And I really hope I do win the competition so be sure to vote for me HERE!

Wish me luck!

THIS REALLY HAPPENED

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This is an actual phone call to the police this week.

No, I am not kidding.

I Died a little...

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My first Acoustic Guitar lesson.
Two hours in and im still figuring out how to tune my guitar.

Instructor: "Seriously? Are you playing a joke on me and wasting my time or something?"

Me: "... Im paying you..."

Instructor: "... Oh... wow."

Ouch indeedy.

Deserves to be shown

For the past few days I have been taunting myself for not actually being very "Artsie".
I had been craving to do some blending and shading skin-tones (I know, im weird!) but when push came to shove, I couldnt pick a pose I liked - so I decided to try a random portrait of my own:

We're talking no hard likes to guide me here, just brush-strokes and blending goodness. Well, I dont know what came over me because 2 hours later I looked at the time and realised it was 2am in the morning - I got into it, almost like I was in some kind of trance!

It is funny that I say that because, rule number of of shading and detailing is the most important: DONT SHADE AFTER DETAILING - but the eye... I really got into that eye, it was like... a trance! Really! I just had to finish that eye!

Dont ask me how I made it look so good. I dont know Dont ask me why I made it that colour. It just felt like I had to.

Suffice to say, when I was done I did try to shade around it. Stupid of me, I know and I was lucky I stoped myself when I did because I ran out of backsteps. It is a shame because I was on such a roll!

I know it is beyond my skill right now to fix and finish it - but it deserves to be shown. The eye is worthy of it alone!

Fell free to finish it yourselfs - just show me when you're done. Im intrigued at what she wanted to be...

Too MUCH!

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I had a very weird dream again, one that I can remember vividly!

In the dream, I was in a post-Apocolypic America and society there had not only changed but was pretty much cut off from the rest of the world.

news of the rest of the world was pretty much yearned for and water was a sporadic pleasure. Anyway, I was living in a kinda.... multi-story/shanti-town and through all the mundane drama that was happening to the people there, I suddenly realised how much I missed my mother.

Then it occured to me 'Why not call her?' but I wasnt sure if the phone line could connect to the UK anymore, so I picked up the nearest phone (it was literally just the receiver) and dialed for the operator. This is exactly how the discussion went:

"Hi there, I was wondering if you can still connect calls to overseas?" (Me)

"Of course sir, I just need the area code and the number you want to connect to" (Operator)

"Sure, 044 (my childhood phone number)"

"Connection has been made sir, shall I patch you through?"

"Please do."

Click~~~Click~~~Click

"Hello?" (My mothers voice, but older and more... drawn)

"Hello mum its me!"

"I dont want to buy any!"

"No mum, its me, your so--"

"I dont want to buy any!" And she hung up.

Things sorta flashed forward from there. I was out at night in the multi-story/shanti town talking to a girl was amazingly black hair and I was attracted to her (Weird because im gay) and then all of a sudden, people wearing those same clothes as the guy pictured above burst through the doors and started screaming at us (with british accents) to get down.

Myself and this girl hid around the corner and observed from a distance until one of the men stepped forward and said:

"You think your American Tech could destroy the world and that we would ever forgive you for it!!"

And I realised 'Oh my god, I led them right to us.' - if it wasnt for my phone call home, the British wouldnt have invaded the America they had assumed was a desolate place.

And that is when I woke up!

So clearly im watching too much Scifi... right? I just think my mind is remarkable for creating such a situation. And also, I can remember word for word everything that was said in that dream.

It was just so real! So vivid! I lived that world for 8 hours and for 8 hours that world was as real to me as the real one.

Awesomely-spooky eh?